I’m one of those people who really needs to be liked. I go out of my way to make sure people feel comfortable, included, cared for, and appreciated. To the point where I can’t enjoy my own parties, end up taking on extra work in groups, and spend entirely too much money on people I can’t even really count as friends. This habit gets me way too stressed out, always ends up backfiring, and to be honest, I’m going to be 29 this year, I’m too old for this shit.
People who make fun of me for having a blog because it’s “stupid” should look at this: Interesting Facts about Blogs, it was written over two years ago, so I’m pretty sure the numbers are a little different, but there are some interesting factoids in here: “Most people read blogs more than once a day,” that surely doesn’t point to blogs being “stupid,” does it? “Businesses that blog at least 20 times per month (4-5 week), generate 5 times more traffic than those that blog fewer that 4 times per month,” point being: bloggers can make money. Look at Jenna Marbles/Mourey, she started blogging in 2009 for Stoollala, and is now worth $2.5 MILLION. To any dumb fuck that thinks blogs are stupid, tell her that.
The Huffington Post is a blog. Gawker. Lifehacker. Fail Blog. Business Insider. Am I saying Always A Sailor is going to be like that? Hell no! This is my place to vent and sound off about stuff that I want to write about. Does it matter that my number one post is about Navy tattoos? No, I don’t mind that one bit. The Navy and Tattoos was my 12th post, and you want to know why I wrote it? It wasn’t so much to bitch about the chick who gets Navy tattoos and hasn’t “earned” them, it was mostly because I was trying to find information on military tattoos and had a ton of trouble figuring out their origins. I thought that if I was looking for the information, maybe other people would want to know as well, so why not make a comprehensive list. I thought about doing separate posts for all of the different branches, but let’s face it, no one has the diversity of tattoos that the Navy has, it’s just our thing.
I’m just done trying to defend myself, my use of hashtags on Instagram, the way I’ve decided to raise my dogs, (yes, you read that right, I have to defend the respectful treatment of my own dogs) and the fact that I’m a disabled veteran (I can’t tell you how many doctors, “shipmates,” and complete strangers have told me I’m faking. Eat shit and die). In order not to be a hypocrite, I’ll try not to judge others too harshly either (maybe I was a little over-the-top in my tattoo post, but whatever, it was three years ago, get over it).
I was just texting a friend about a get-together she’s having this weekend for her birthday (Happy Birthday, J!) and she said this:
I’m ready for my 20s to be over, I feel more classy because I’m older for some reason, like my age kind of makes me badass.
We talked about how we no longer feel it necessary to close bars, have ragers, and party like we will never party again. Sometimes it’s cool to just hang out around the fire pit and talk about nothing, you know? Everyone seems so obsessed with putting out this image of being a badass, and I don’t think you achieve it until you grow the hell up and get over all that crap. Most of my friends and I are entering that “don’t give a fuck” portion of our lives where we’re old enough to realize life isn’t a goddamn competition, but still young enough that we can kick ass in anything we want to do. I look at some of the people I served with, especially those that are out now (whether honorably or dishonorably), and I just think about how sad they are. They still feel the need to treat others like crap to make themselves feel better. I’m sorry your life wasn’t all you wanted it to be, but it’s life, that’s how it is! One minute I’m considering asking someone my fiance and I served with to do a reading at our wedding, the next he’s being a narcissistic prick and I’m thinking “fuck you, buddy, I don’t want you around on the happiest day of my life…”
So, fuck it. I’ve spent most of my life trying to make “the cool kids” like me. Usually people stop after high school, but I joined the Navy, which is more like middle school, so I backtracked. Now that I’ve been away from that crap for three years, am a graduate student, and am just so happy with my lot in life (except for the whole depression and handicapped things), that I simply don’t have time for the immature morons that insist on ruining it. Social media seems to bring those things out in people too, they feel so powerful, sitting there behind their computer screens. It’s disgusting.
So, now that I have trimmed some douche off of the wedding guest list, I can continue with my life, without these jerks anywhere near my radar…